breathe out

and then there are days i don't feel so bad.

i have three jobs, and i love each of them.

i have an amazing apartment with a great HM. we have enough room and ammenities to help a friend in need and to host guests from out of town, even if i'm working all weekend.

i have a family who loves me, and drives me crazy.

i have had a couple of dates that left me smiling.

some how, even if not in the intended destination, i am still in the right place. a good place. a place that allows me to Give. a place that welcomes my Giving. a place that Benefits from my Giving.

so there.

my five year old continues to challenge the adults in his life.

...i don't think they intended to pay me to blog tonight. so i'll go back to reading.

much love.

aught seven

i think that's how it's spelled, the fifty-cent phrase for the year. last year i had but two resolutions: getting through my nursing program and getting laid.

i feel like i haven't accomplished either, although it may depend upon your definition... at any rate, this year bodes better, already.

i have been singing Hate by The Plain White T's all damn day, and not because i have anyone to sing it about, not even her. it is simply a jazzy little song and i like to sing it.

point in case: i recieved a warm fuzzy from a patient tonight. no lie. a simple note in pencil on a piece of scratch paper the patient got from a nurse or another tech: "you are born to do this. so 25 years from now when you're doing this, look back and remember what you enjoy doing, which is helping others! thanks for everything!" no digits [thank you]. no shmooshiness. just a genuine warm fuzzy.

and i'm still singing this song!! just jazzerific.

if 2006 taught me anything it is that i have a lot to offer, i come with many gifts. not everyone knows what to do with those gifts. some people get downright angry with them. some people feel like they have to give back. some people don't know how to say thank you. some people think they have to pay for them. and i still find reasons to give. mostly because i can. i'm a damn fine nurse.

now let's see what 2007 can do about that.

to you and yours....