Sunday, September 30, 2007

i've been hanging out with my extended family. working on not being so extended.

coming home was lonely.

i ain't gonna lie.

but i wanted to say something. so i did.

now i'm gonna go sleep off my sunday night drinking fit. [i wasn't drinkin' alone.]

more laters.

Monday, September 17, 2007

a good nod

thanks, fire, for telling me about this little cutie pie.

i can see it in the eyes a little bit. not sure how rose c would take it, but i'd be honored. then again, i'm a big sucker for people under four feet tall.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

sigh



the book of love



the park

[rose polenzani has the losely curly hair, rose cousins wears the stocking cap. in my heaven, kim, they sing like this all of the time.]

um ..... hilarious

HM had a little fun on the internets today. i tried to import it, but i can't and all my photos have me as a brunette. so i'll have to send you here. [i'll see if i can't get her to export the photo, or do it again or something.






this is she:






fun times.



tasty, sugar-free thoughts go out to Firestarter5, tonight, kids.



big, boob friendly hugs to you, my love.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

200 years too late

yorlor has a fucking headache.

this week has fraught her ship with holes and she be taking in the drink rather quickly, mateys.

the touchstone cancelled her south american vacation, trumped by opportunity later in the year for his family. she ne'er did claim she ruled his time, nor he hers. and while he knowingly owns the blow he's dealt our heroine's soul, weary for his companionship, she is still left rocking in the wake of it's effect.

a job prospect called and recognized the white flag sailing above the wading craft. heard the song of trial and turmoil and how yet she persevered, though blindly at times. served as witness the skeletal [read:solo] staff which manages to keep this boat afloat and the meager collection of coin on which she runs. proclaimed the vessel worthy of saving and the captain worthy of good pay. then shortened the length of rope extended by half. ye' still need licensing of one sort or another, dear lass.

and so she sits bobbing. bailing buckets of brine out her innards. singing songs to make light of bone scraping work. knuckles bloodied. eyes swole. throat hoarse from the barking dry cough that scars her painted complexion of health.

still bending o'er those in need. teary eyed she pretends to hide nothing. in sorrow she serves, still motherly lecturing her fold to mind the ways set out for good health.

those who can't ...

"teach. your parents well. their children's hell. will slowly go by.
and feed. them on your dreams. the one they picked. the one you'll know by.
don't you ever ask them why. if they told you, you would cry. so just look at them and sigh. and know they love you."

it's not like i wasn't trying, dad.

Monday, September 10, 2007

over here!!

Kimmyk,
i'm here, behind the bottles of advil, airbourne, boxes of alka seltzer cold, sinus and night time, the remains of the ginger root i made tea with, next to the vial of lucifer's lil yellow pepper i've been adding to everything to sweat this beast of a illness out of my body. i even consulted my mom and started a 5 day z-pac i had stored away for such nasty occassion. everything was swollen and achey. i cancelled all my plans for the weekend. slept. sweat. chugged the fluids and sweat some more. my lungs still sound like seagulls when i exhale. off to the store to get some mucinex before work.
wish me the best.
yors

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

fire, this is what we do...

while checking ye' ol' email, i see this on the side bar:

Record Number of Americans Lack Health Insurance
By Steven Reinberg, HealthDay Reporter
HealthDay
TUESDAY, Aug. 28 (HealthDay News) -- A record number of Americans are without health insurance, according to new U.S. Census Bureau statistics released Tuesday.
Some of the trend can be explained by employers who are curtailing coverage or making it too costly for lower income workers to afford, the report said.
"The number of people without health insurance coverage increased from 44.8 million in 2005 to 47 million in 2006," David S. Johnson, chief of the bureau's Housing and Household Economic Statistics Division, said during a teleconference Tuesday.
The percentage of Americans without health insurance rose to 15.8 percent in 2006 from 15.3 percent in 2005, Johnson added. "This is the second consecutive year of increase," he said.
At the same time, the number of people with health insurance increased to 249.8 million in 2006, from 249 million in 2005. The number of Americans covered by private health insurance and government insurance remained about the same, according to the report, Poverty, and Health Insurance Coverage in the United States: 2006.
The problems of the uninsured are particularly acute among children. The percent and the number of children under 18 without health insurance increased to 11.7 percent from 10.9 percent from 2005 to 2006, and to 8.7 million from 8 million, respectively.
"The number of children covered by private insurance decreased from 65.8 percent in 2005 to 64.6 percent in 2006," Johnson said. "The increase in the uninsured rate can be attributed to the decline in private coverage."
Moreover, 19.3 percent of children in poverty had no health insurance.
The percentage of people covered by private employer or privately purchased insurance declined only slightly, from 68.5 percent in 2005 to 67.9 percent in 2006, Johnson said. "Persons covered by government-provided health insurance declined from 27.3 percent in 2005 to 27 percent in 2006," he added.
The percentage of people covered by employer health insurance plans dropped to 59.7 percent in 2006, from 60.2 percent in 2005.
There was no change in the number of people covered by Medicaid, the federal insurance program for low-income people -- 38.3 million.
Uninsured rates for whites remained constant at 10.8 percent but rose among blacks -- from 19 percent in 2005 to 20.5 percent in 2006. The percentage and the number of uninsured Hispanics increased to 34.1 percent and 15.3 million in 2006.
Commenting on the report, Karen Davis, president of the Commonwealth Fund, said the increase in the number of uninsured Americans was surprising, given the relatively low unemployment rates and a stable economy. She said she fears a dramatic increase in the number of people without health insurance should the economy weaken.
"It's a surprising jump in the numbers of uninsured," Davis said. "To get a 2.2 million hike in one year is pretty disturbing. We are getting a middle-class squeeze -- it's not just families in poverty."
Davis added that employers were dropping coverage of dependents. "It really varies by the income of the family," she said. "Either employers aren't covering the kids, or the premium share is too high for families to afford."
There is urgency in getting people -- especially children -- covered, Davis added. "We need to get more comprehensive solutions on the table," she said. "There is a case for action to deal with uninsured children, and we need a comprehensive strategy that insures health insurance for all."
Kathleen Stoll, director of health policy at the consumer advocacy group Families USA, also expressed shocked at the rise in the number of uninsured Americans.
"The numbers took my breath away," Stoll said. "The increase is more dramatic than we've seen."
Stoll thinks the report will spur the debate over health care and serve as a catalyst for some form of universal health insurance.
"When you consider how large this increase is, I would think this would build momentum, feed the fire for the health care reform debate that we hope we will see in 2009 under leadership from the White House and the Congress," she said.
Gail Shearer, health policy director at Consumers Union, publisher of Consumer Reports, said Congress and the Bush administration should immediately "rededicate" themselves to expanding health insurance coverage.
"This substantial increase in the uninsured should get everyone's attention," she added in a prepared statement. "We should not have to wait until the next president takes office to deal with this very real problem. Congress and the President ought to commit to expanding coverage now."
The American Medical Association also said the new numbers on uninsured Americans demand legislative action.
"Today's announcement on the increase in the number of uninsured Americans is a forceful reminder that action is desperately needed. Currently, 47 million Americans, including nearly nine million children, don't have health insurance coverage," AMA board member Dr. Joseph Heyman said in a prepared statement.
"It is unconscionable that the number of uninsured children has substantially increased over the past year. Children are our future, and for kids to get a good start in life, they need access to regular visits to the doctor," he added.
"Covering America's kids is the first step toward covering all Americans. The AMA just launched a three-year, multi-million dollar campaign called "Voice For The Uninsured" to spur action to cover the uninsured," Heyman said.
More information
For more on health insurance, visit the Commonwealth Fund.

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Monday, September 03, 2007

i can edit!!


Sunday, September 02, 2007

dammit: warning, you will listen to every song, twice.

thanks to spanish fly and the one i had drinks with, this has been playing in my head for weeks and i can't stop singing it... the one i had drinks with said this was one of the first songs he taught himself to play on the guitar, which he recently purchased and started to play. i originally told him that fact put him immediately in my top three of all people, but being well on my way to being stumbly drunk and realizing i knew this guy all of not-long-enough to have that title i said, "make that top five," "i've been demoted already!!" "i've gotta pee, get over this on yer own, bucko." it's amazing what i can do to a man's ego in five minutes flat.

this one is more amuzing because of dave's hair, but the guitar is so out of tune i didn't make it past the word orphan. it's called a sound check, guys. thanks.

at any rate, it all makes me think about highschool, which can't be done without hearing this in the back of my head. which makes me rather smile, a lot. i lusted after a boy i went to church with {!!!} who looked a bit like scott wieland. we were also both swimmers. we swam for arch rival teams. i tell ya, swimming is a great sport for puberty. all that skin. muscles. rippling. take yer mark. grunt, lunge, splash and roar. ... mmmm. yum. ironic enough, it was when i was caught watching boys change that i was really first called a lesbo.... hmmmm.... maybe they just caught on that i got out of the locker room a bit quickly. [i didn't exactly go to highschool in a homo-friendly atmosphere.] oh, but he is so delicious...

then there was the guy i met through some weekend jesus marathon. i went on the girl's weekend. he went the next month on the guy's weekend along with a guy i went to school with. we would all congregate for evenings of consolation that we were no longer in our little jesus bubble. [note, it was on this weekend that i not only stated i didn't want to fall head over heals in love with some incredible boy, the romance? the butterflies? the ring??!!??!? but would rather have a committment ceremony wherein me and my best friend would state just that: that we were best friends and would be there for each other, no matter what; but, i also spent the entire weekend running across the room to kiss a girl full on the mouth, all in the name of agape... riiiiiight. who's a little gay?] i went to hang out with people who didn't think i was a freak. eventually, we got to be buddies and i drove out to the middle of nowhere farm country to hang out, and i remember he played journey until i understood what it meant to rediscover anybody. this was the kid who called me dyke and it made me smile. like being a lesbian wasn't like having the plague, or some flesh eating disease, but something kind of cool, maybe even special. something other people would want to be around me for. or just the idea that others could want me.

i had some friends in highschool. not many. the majority of them were from church. we had dances. that hot swimmer kid played in a band that played all my favorite moody songs, and then some. and some i wish they had played. [yes, sg, each word is a different song, because i kick that much ass.] but it was church... they had fun together on stage. they weren't afraid to put it out there. i danced until my legs burned. and then i danced harder. you could have cut glass on my calves. sweaty. salty. hungry for things i didn't yet have language for. i danced. throbbed. longed for something i understood, but couldn't talk about. even about the boys i fancied. i didn't have words or cognitive comprehension. i just felt.

oh bother, it's 3. i have a lunch date with a dear and awesomely great friend and i have to go jogging first.

thanks for playing.

yors