still feeling badly?

did you get this cake, today?

me neither.

but i *did* get a letter from the alternate nursing school. the one that was very respectable in telling me i was pissing up a rope with my transfer attempt. they have officially taken a pass on me enrolling this fall.

i'm not that upset. i kind of knew the answer already. i've started a savings account. i'm rearranging my credit card debt. i'm making calls to consilidate and otherwise fix the loans so that they are no so oppressive for a while. i'm looking into other jobs in the medical field. i'm getting ready to leave the house so i can teach some kiddie poos not to drown and have lots of parents tell me how great i am. i'm making a plan and sticking to it.

i haven't the slightest idea what i am going or supposed to do about this nursing school thing, right now.

my big sister says maybe i should back burner nursing school and pay down life for a while [my current debt load after a bachelors in psychology from a 4 year private university and my train wreck of a year in this accelerated nursing program is suffocatingly akin to someone with a mortgage and a car payment].

breathe in.

breathe out.